How I ruined my day reading my google reader ....

Edit: sorry for the first message that has gotten out of my control ...

I know it sounds weird such a thing could happen but that's what happened to me. I was reading the blogs when I checked Windy's blog which is a blog I really like. She was talking about a little boy who just died of neuroblastoma (cancer). She gave a link to his blog. I knew it was NOT a good idea to click on the link, that I should know better, that I am not strong enough to yet ... but I clicked and what I saw made me very sad, brought a lot of painful memories back, made me cry and depressed for the day ... I think the most painful part is to see this child's pain when they have to access to his portacath (in his chest). Pierre was the same: in spite of all the special cream he has on it, he was so scared by the whole procedure. It's not easy having a kid in remission because remission doesn't mean the kid is heal; it just means, there is no sign of cancer cells in the analysis. PIerre doesn't have any blood tests anymore and we just go to the doctor every 6 months so we don't know how he's really doing. We just assume if he looks fine that means he is fine ... What is hard is that daily life keeps us from focussing on what is important and Pierre is often hard to deal with so it's easy to be sidetracked by non important little things ....

Sorry for writting such a depressing post but it is also the reality I'm dealing with (even though sometimes I'd like to forget it ... )

You wanted a little progress picture? Here it is:

Will you believe that I'm not too bothered by the green? Maybe it's because there is not a lot of greens in this design !!! I'm still working on the right part of the flowers. I know it looks weird but I'm sure it will look like something nice when I'm done !!!

So tomorrow is saturday which means getting up early as Pierre has to be at school at 8.45 Can I send it back to his old school? It's going to take me some time to get used to this new routine ...

How I ruined my day reading my google reader ....

More progress ...

Yep I did stitch last night. I guess I'm getting used to my new routine again. I still need to adjust in the morning because I feel lonely and won't allow myself to stitch (I don't know why, for me mornings should be devoted to cleaning ... )

Beware: fall is coming !!! Leaves are falling down already I couldn't believe the truck from the city was blowing the leaves away ... Usually, when we go back to school, we still have one week of nice and sunny weather (for us to adjust ) but this year, rain and wind compete to who will win No winner so far ...

Wednesday

Here is the picture I promised you.

But I'm late so I can't really chat ... I should have more time tomorrow

Back to school 2

There we go: everybody is officially a student and I'm officially home alone during school time! Believe it or not, I felt lonely today (I guess I'm the only who was not ready for back to school !!! ) Steb did great: he went only half a day. At first, he didn't want me to leave but I explained that moms and dads could not stay in the classroom (I know, that's not fair ) I took him to see the puzzle area but there were too many kids so we went to the farm area instead. I told I will leave and he said no! He played a little more and was ready for me to leave him there. At lunch time, the teacher told me everything went well and that he cried only one time: at recess time, when Emma went to see him : he wanted to leave with her She told me he's a very nice and quiet kid. Of course, he's nice: he has my genes She even told Emma he was the nicest child today

Emma was not very happy to go back to school as she is not in the same class as her friends. She's very disapointed and I don't like her teacher either: she's the director of the school but she doesn't care much for her class ... I may put her in another school next year ...

Pierre second day of school went fine too but they had a lot of fun games for the kids today (see, it's an experimental school: they make the kids believe they won't have to study ) They went to picnic at the park and of course, Pierre didn't eat: just a piece of bread and a cookie I knew it ... Thanks god he has some fat to keep it warm around the waist Anyway, he still comes out of the building with a big grin on his face And I have an apointment with the main teacher on thrusday or friday (I choose) to discuss Pierre's issues: leukemia, hyper sensibilty to pain (always hard to believe) and learning problems. Then she will spead the news around the other teachers. (even though they should know about it: we told them in our interview back in may.)

My neighbor's life:

Some neighbors are, how could I say that? Creepy? Weird? Disturbing? I got a phone call at 11 am from the boyfriend of my neighbor ! I don't even know the guy! ( I just saw him a couple of times ... ) It told me: "please, go knock the door of my girlfriend, I need to speak to her. Don't hesitate and insist as she's sleeping. And tell her to call me back" So some crazy thoughts went to my mind: he's planning to kill her and as soon as I'll ring the bell, the appartment will explode. He killed her and wants me to discover the body ... They broke up and she doesn't want to have anything to do with him ... But I went anyway and she was hard to wake up ... The dog on the other side of the alley was wide awake and was making music to help me becoming the most hated neighbors of the whole floor ... Then when the lady finally woke up after several knocks on the door, she couldn't believe it either (see, I do have something in common with my neighbors ) She asked me: " my boyfriend?" I replied "well, I don't know how many boyfriends you have but this one knows you have twins girls so he must be pretty intimate with you " (note from the editor: I almost said that .... ) She told me she'll have a conversation with him : I just hope she will find out how this creepy guy got my name AND phone number because I, I don't even know the name of my neighbors (maybe he saw our name on the mailbox but if he did, I still find it creepy that he does remembers it .... ) With Chuy, we give them nicknames: "la chiquita" = the nice short lady; "the drunk guy" (no explaination needed) , the twins mother (I'm sure you recognize her ) I just hope we can move from this place someday (at least before our neighbors give us some nicknames of their own: you know the old couple: the one that got stuck in that complex

Sorry no stitching update today as I couldn't stitch last night: I was busy checking all the supplies for back to school. But there is a good news: tonight is MY night !!! Please, come back tomorrow for an update

Back to school 1

Pierre started secondary school with a lot of worries about the cafetaria (his main concern ) We had to be there at 8.45 am and parents were allowed to stay until 11.00 am. The teacher explained each group what they are going to do in the next days. As I told you already this secondary school is not like every other secondary school. Actually it is an experimental school where teachers choose to teach and where they want to teach differently. So they are only 22 per class with half girls and half boys. I left at 11 am when it was time to go to the cafetaria (which mandatory in that school.) and all Pierre wanted to do is to check the menu He saw he could eat lasagna and was very happy with his choice (there were lasagnas, salmon lasagna, turkey steak and salad and green beans. Not bad, right? ) I went to pick him up at 4 pm and he arrived with a big grin: he loved his day. I feel much better looking at him so excited about his first day. We had a meeting from 5 to 6.30 pm where all the teachers were intorduced to the parents. Now I have to make an apointment with his main teacher to talk about his health issues ...

Tomorrow, it's back to school for Emma and my sweet little stubborn baby Can't believe the day is here ... which means vacations are over No more waking up at 9 or 9.30 am It was hard getting at 7 this morning ... and the worst thing about it is that Pierre has school on saturday mornings: that sucks ( 9.45 to 12.00) I hope Steb will like his teacher and school ... He seemed excited tonight so let's keep our fingers crossed for him too

My progress as last night :